there was something calming about the morning air.
crisp and fresh, the beginnings of a new day
a new existance
a new...
self.

undeniably there were just so many things that could never be understood or explained.
the whats the hows and most importantly the whys
what the hell was it that was happening?
how could it ever.....

and why?


it was painful to be outdoors
the cold slicing against his skin

he thought back, nine years ago he had been in a similar situation
god...nine years
an eternity

hell, another month or two would have been more appropriate
a ten year anniversary of sorts


he tried to focus on how beautiful of a day it was
trying to ignore the bitter taste
left in his heart...


he liked standing in the freezing cold
it reminded him how it felt to be alive







...he hated meeting people like her
it reminded him how it felt to be in love;


unrequited
12.19.2003

anthem of agony

set my heart on fire
im so dark inside
empty bottles
of wasted desire
you were to be mine;
if only for tonight

never knew i could
be so numb
yet feel piercing pain
they say always dream
and yet
keep dreaming once again

run through alleyways
to find you or
leave you
doesn't matter anyway

they say always dream
and yet
keep dreaming once again

have you had that dream
of falling off a cliff
did you ever hit the ground?

have you had that dream
of falling in love
did we ever hit the ground?

no longer here when i sleep
but always in my sleep
set my heart on fire
im so dead inside

12/9/03

You are the Consummate Hipster. Newbies bow to
you, everyone else just stares, as you swagger
down the street with "Little Green
Bag" stuck in your head.


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